Why I am Not Going Back to Normal

Back to the way things were…

The ‘new’ normal….

Back to reality….

Whatever you want to call the future after all restrictions are released and COVID-19 is slowly transforming into a fading memory versus the consistent, daily reality which it is, nothing will change for the better unless you do.

I have been on a journey of self-improvement for as long as I can remember, and perhaps even longer than that.

Pre-COVID-19, I was becoming exhausted with facing this daily journey of self-improvement because I kept waiting for a finish line to arrive.

I kept expecting the journey of self-improvement to come to a nice, clean culmination and for this perfect version of myself, who never screamed, judged, mourned, regretted, or even had a bad hair day simply to appear and take over the wheel.

Well…the bitch never showed up.

What the extra time during isolation has made me realize is that I was a fool for waiting for someone who does not exist, nor should exist to arrive.