Usually, when I am making a big decision in my life, my brain function is like this:
What will my dad think of this?
How will this impact my partner?
Will my in-laws be short changed?
Will my friends be happy for me and will I still be able to support them properly?
Is this the right decision?
Who can tell me what the right decision is?
I am going to call my sister-in-law and ask her to do a tarot reading for me, I need approval.
I need someone to approve this decision for me.
I have stopped this psychotic train in its tracks.
I have finally, at thirty-four years old, made a decision, entirely based on the fact that it was the right choice for me.
I did not consult with family.
I did not seek out approval from anyone.
I did discuss it with my partner and we made a plan, which allowed me to follow my dream and he follow his, while still existing together.
I am free.
I have finally figured out how to be happy; it is making the right choice for you, and not asking for approval or agreement (from anyone) before making said decision because at least one of those people is not going approve.
This feeling is amazing and we should all be practicing living our lives like this, each and every day.