Twice Divorced But Not Deterred

Twice divorced, but not deterred…damn, that is a tough statement to truly believe, but I do.

I never thought this would be my life, but I am truly grateful for it.

I didn’t always feel this way, believe you me.

I definitely felt a lot of shame in these failures, and others were very quick to consistently remind me that I should be as well. I do not feel that way anymore. I am actually really proud of myself now to be twice divorced, while still very optimistic about the future of my love life and life at large.

I have just realized I was never willing to settle in any facet of my life.

I was looking at these relationships from the wrong perspective. It took time, lived experience, solitude, authentic relationships and self-respect to realize that, so it took a minute to get here.

I am not a failure, not by a long shot.

I am not a tragic tale.

I am a symbol of what a woman can be when she doesn’t care what others think of her and isn’t willing to shrink to societal concepts of shame. Why would I stay with someone who makes me feel shitty about myself when I could spend the rest of my life with myself? I adore me, and I can’t understand why it took me so long to see and realize my awesomeness.