Redemption After Reeling

How to Regain Your Footing After a Failure

When I was young, I used to think that adults were perfect human beings.

I truly believed that adults did not lie, cheat or steal because I thought that these were imperfections, which we all grew out of.

There is no black and white in this world.

There are no good people and bad people; we are all flawed, we all make mistakes and we all commit harms.

We all have (many) moments of our lives that we desperately wish we could take back and do again because we so desperately wish that they were not a part of the story of who we are.

We wish we were created from only the best and most beautiful moments of our lives, but the moments in which we do abhorrent and unforgivable things also defines who we are.

At our lowest points in life, nothing seems attainable. It seems that this terrible state we are in is a state of permanence.

How can we ever recover?

Pain, humiliation, fear, and regret love our attention and want nothing more, but for us to live and wallow in the mistakes of yesterday for the rest of time.

They feed off of us, and the more attention we give them, the stronger their holds on our psyche.

There have been many times in my life where I prayed that I could turn back the wheel of time.

I would have given anything to be able to go back and have a redo. I would have given years of my life, just for those fleeting moments where the failure formulated to be back in my control.

No matter how many times I have been knocked down, by my own personal setback(s) or others, I have never remained in that fetal position (permanently).

Sometimes, I have stayed down for a long time, perhaps weeks or months, and other times, I was much more resilient and it only took a sheer number of hours to recuperate. Somehow, someway, I always end up back on my feet, moving forward, no matter how much I fear, loath, or hate what is ahead.

I cannot stay with the devil I know for fear of the devil I do not because I want a life with no devil on my shoulder at all.

The best thing I have learned, from my brilliant, bodacious, bountiful blunders of the past is that you can redeem yourself.

You redeem yourself by choosing not to be that person anymore.

True redemption is going to bed at night, with the full, absolute knowledge that you have hurt others, made irreversible mistakes and have had self-created hardships, which will never be erased from your story, but you have chosen to grow from them.

You have chosen to see your scars as tattoos of your tale, which explain how you have become the person you are today.

Forgive yourself from your reeling past and your road to redemption will start right away.

I write about issues that are near and dear to my heart, with the hope that my stories, experiences, and struggles may empower others:

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