I think what I write can sometimes appear much bleaker than my life actually is. I lean into my sadness, stress or issues, so that it might be of help to others.
I understand that sparks of happiness are illusionary, but I still feel connections are very important.
I learn so much from friends of mine who are older than me in my years. They help me understand the reality of life. I understand that you are struggling in life and feel that there is a lot of hopelessness in life, but I wonder, what gets you up in the morning?
What motivates you to write online?
What motivates you to interact with strangers?
I wonder where the motivation is and where the happiness is.
I have struggled to find happiness and your reflection on what you have learned over the years makes me question whether I will find it or not, but I am hopeful.
In a previous message you spoke about lost loves or relationships and it surprised me because I know realize that you can carry those regrets for a long time.
From your words and thoughts I am really working on living the life I want to live because I want each day to be hopeful and meaningful. I am inspired by your honesty because I relish for this type of reflection on life.
Perhaps you and I will never know the secret to life, the meaning of duty or the purpose of our actions, but I cannot help but enjoy the exploration of the unknown…if any of this makes sense.