I have always been a goals driven person.
I am a list maker, a task orientated worker and enjoy striving for very high, lofty goals. They have always been the equation for success, which I thought was happiness.
Happiness is not a synonym for success.
The older I am getting, the less I am believing that success is happiness. As I age, I am realizing that finding your true happiness is living life under the boundaries, which you respect and have created for yourself: your time must be appreciated, your relationships need to be authentic and your energy emitted to things of purpose.
Success comes in fleeting moments, which we try to hold onto and encapsulate into currency.
I have realized that a lot of things, which I placed extreme importance on in life, were very fickle. Success comes in fleeting moments, which we try to hold onto and encapsulate into currency. They are inauthentic experiences, which we try to justify, with shiny emoticons and filters as facts.
Most people’s lives are not as shiny as they appear on Instagram.
I actually think the shinier your life is online, the more you are compensating for a gaping hole, which needs immediate attention.
I am starting to be ruthless with my life.
I have started questioning where and who I spend my time with and how much of my time and control I am willing to give to others.
There is a lot of happiness in my life, but I need to let go of the past.
I need to let go of grudges and past pains, inflicted by me, onto others, or vice versa and simply move forward.
A new year always makes me reflect on the good and the bad of the past year. I have accomplished a lot this past year; on paper, the year was pretty wonderful, but that is not always the true facts.
I was really hard on myself this year, I kept trying to make self care ‘a thing’ versus respecting it for its true purpose. I felt guilty when I was not always doing, succeeding or completing and I paid for it.
I do not want to be go, go, go all the time.
I want to learn to relax and smell the roses. I want to be less type A and appreciate my organizational skills and ability to do, with less expectations.
I am finding my happiness by cutting the bullshit out of my life and the inauthentic experiences. Does that mean I do less? Yes, but what I do now has so much more meaning.